“jimmied letters” The Epic Battle Within You

“jimmied letters”
The Epic Battle Within You

Inside you right now are an angel and a beast. The angel is the higher-self, of a spiritually enlightened soul. And the beast is the lower-self of desires, feelings and wants. Often times we find we are in a hidden battle of inner conflict, fighting to figure out what it is that we truly want and need in our lives. It is an epic battle over your soul, each exchanging blows in conquest of your spiritual world. No one can see this battle, and the wrestling of these spirits, but you. You may struggle with inner issues, or “inner demons” each and every day. The thing is you have desires and you want to be happy, but you also don’t want to be a bad person either.

James 1:22 But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves. 23 For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man observing his natural face in a mirror; 24 for he observes himself, goes away, and immediately forgets what kind of man he was. 25 But he who looks into the perfect law of liberty and continues in it, and is not a forgetful hearer but a doer of the work, this one will be blessed in what he does.

The thing about the beast is that it doesn’t know that it is bad. It is fully driven by feelings and it just wants to not hurt, and it wants to feel good. But the angel can see all the selfish and foolish actions that the beast does, and it can not understand its feelings. It is so fully enlightened that it has separated from our baser instincts, and it sees how the beast so bull-headedly moves around, knocking things about in its wake to get to what it wants. It also sees the people and how they get hurts when it tries to satisfy its own desires to be happy and to live a life without pain. The beast is basic and primitive, but the angel has risen above all this. In fact, it is so enlightened that it thinks it knows everything, and it wants to control everything in a manner of order and correctness. So the angel with its high ideals of order, struggles to fight the beast to control it into submission. But the beast wants none of that, if it doesn’t get to have a good feeling in return. It does not want to be forced to do anything it doesn’t want to do.

Job 23:9 When He works on the left hand, I cannot behold Him; When He turns to the right hand, I cannot see Him.

So the battle of wills rages on inside you, and at times it can tear you apart. You have heard of this same battle before as:

There are two dogs that fight within you. Which one wins? The one you feed the most.

Proverbs 4:27 Do not turn to the right or the left; Remove your foot from evil.

But these dogs are tearing you apart in their battle. Each one is very strong in its will to win. And if you feed one more than another, then that one will gain the upper hand. So if you feed your inner angel, it will grow strong enough that it can force your beast to submit. But the beast is all of your human desires, and to completely crush them, is to then crush a part of your spirit by forcing yourself to give up everything you have ever wanted, and to only do things in a “correct” and “orderly” form. And in this forced imbalance of the spirit, neurosis and compulsions form. And then we become obsessed with trying to control not only ourselves, but also the things around us, and making them as we think they should be. And to be so spiritually correct minded, it often makes you no earthly good to anyone else that may need you to feel for them, and understand their wants and needs. Order is very good, but at what cost to your spirit and soul? To kill the natural desires that God has given you is to go against the shape that the Great Potter has formed you to be. You need to have a balance between your natural desires, and also having an awareness of your actions and their consequences.

Ecclesiastes 7:15 I have seen everything in my days of vanity:

There is a just man who perishes in his righteousness,
And there is a wicked man who prolongs life in his wickedness.

16 Do not be overly righteous,
Nor be overly wise:
Why should you destroy yourself?

17 Do not be overly wicked,
Nor be foolish:
Why should you die before your time?

18 It is good that you grasp this,
And also not remove your hand from the other;
For he who fears God will escape them all.

The beast alone is too basic for its own good, and if it wins this epic battle of the upper and lower consciousness of self, then it will rule you in chaos, and it becomes a thing no one else can bear. It is so foolish, and crude, and primitive, and everyone else you meet has their own balance of angel and a beast within them. And your inner beast will soon find itself getting into very real conflicts with the real world people around you! And soon your house will come to ruin.

Job 8:15  He leans on his house, but it does not stand. He holds it fast, but it does not endure.

Deuteronomy 5:32 “Therefore you shall be careful to do as the LORD your God has commanded you; you shall not turn aside to the right hand or to the left.

Who Do You Feed?

So who do you feed more? The beast or the angel? One is completely unfeeling and very tidy and orderly, and the other is great with feelings that are chaotic and completely left unchecked.

Isaiah 9:20 And he shall snatch on the right hand And be hungry; He shall devour on the left hand And not be satisfied; Every man shall eat the flesh of his own arm.

The truth is you feed them both their dues. Both desires are legitimate parts of you and your perfect experience on Earth. Both sides of you need to feed. They both need to eat to survive. And if they are both in balance, then you and your life will be in balance. Because when there is no inner conflict, you can balance out your passions and your patience to a point of finding inner wholeness and peace with yourself and the world around you.

Remember Lucifer, that fallen angel of light that gave the world knowledge that lead to death? He is called the accuser, and goes before the Lord and claims your unworthiness each and every day as if he is perfect. He plays the part of the upper angel in control, forcing everyone to do what he believes is correct. Some say this was his sin that made him fall. It is believed that his desires to see all souls do what they are supposed to would bring about balance and order.

Revelation 12:10 Then I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, “Now salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of His Christ have come, for the accuser of our brethren, who accused them before our God day and night, has been cast down.

But he is also that same entity calling you to come and play in his wicked garden of selfish delights. He is the extremes of two truths. Lucifer is a spirit that is severely unbalanced. And his unbalanced nature has made him a restless and weary soul. Because control is an illusion. He wants you to adore him for giving you all you can desire. But his main goal is to control you with his order, so he also takes things away. And if you think you are being an uplifted and pure soul, he then preys on that desire too, because he is the master of “order” and he will pervert that desire to his cause. Remember the Pharisees and Sadducees of the Bible, that stirred up the crowd to kill our Lord Christ and Savior? They were filled with this desire for order and tradition to their laws. Laws meant for the better of people. But people are not so perfect. And the balance of spirits was off. Force is not the way. Lucifer is a fallen angel because there is no balance found within him. He is both too feeling, and not feeling enough. And all his desires are to have complete control on one side or other of the coin of life. He is absorbed with himself and his desires alone, and as a result he has set himself up as God. And this is what makes him known as the devil. Because a devil means to do things without understanding consequences. It is to cast out things without care for where they land. And in his great wisdom he casts out every slander and accusation he can muster to gain control of your soul. He is the enemy of all things whole and good by being both careless and selfish.

Devil: diabolos; dē-ä’-bo-los: To throw things about without caring; to traduce, calumniate, slander, accuse, defame

Don’t play the devil in your own life! Find the balance within you. Or the journey home to Heaven can easily become forever lost to you, because it is easy to turn from the path that is narrow and built upon the balancing of these two truths.

Matthew 7:13 “Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. 14 Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.

Note: Cities represent a mental or emotional state of being.

Revelation 21:2 Then I, John, saw the holy city, New Jerusalem (Peace), coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband.

The marriage of the spirit


WAIT! There’s More!

The following addition to this post (below), I find to be amusing. And this is why I have chose to post this as both a regular post as well as a “jimmied letter” post.

This last week I had two other blogs ask me to write a “guest post” for their blog at exactly the same time. Even more interestingly is that it was for the exact same posting date as well, but neither group were connected nor affiliated with the other. One site gladly opted to post this article with great joy and without question. But the other opted out, for reasons of difference in “Christian” views. Funnier still, is I have never been asked to do a guest post before, but now I have two, and as this post is about two sides at odds with each other, and the work of the antagonistic effects in our lives, what could be more apropos?

The name of the site that opted out of posting this will remain anonymous as I really love and adore their work in the service of the Lord. But I have no qualms in posting our email exchanges, because I feel this article is something that needs to be addressed and the reaction is symptomatic of our confusion in faith. And I strongly believe by learning to balance out our lives on the spiritual level brings about the greatest peace and wholeness to our souls.


Mystery Blog

My wife and I have been discussing your contribution and we decided not to use it. We apologize for the inconvenience. We know we approach you and your time and effort went into it. However, we feel your words reflect a New Age philosophy rather than Jesus being the essential Savior and following His will.

Thank you for your time and we do appreciate your efforts.

Now to be honest, I was a little confused by this response as the Angel and Demon on your shoulder is the second most common symbol in Christianity, second only to the cross. So here was my response.


Soulblindministry Blog

No problem, but I find it funny that you considered it “New Age” when the angel and the devil on your shoulder is the second most famous image of Christianity. You do understand the explanation is not a real angel and beast in you but simply your higher and lower reasoning? Your flesh, versus the spirit. Jesus is the bridge and balance of these two spirits inside you. This is the salvation of God, the peace and balance He gives to your spirit to wholeness and peace… He is “The Way” of the straight and narrow path.

John 14:6 Jesus said to him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.

Not going to far to the right hand (over righteousness), nor to the left hand of (over foolishness), but balance between the two. This is the central pattern of the entire Bible. I can give you LOTS of examples of this balance of your upper and lower self.

Ecclesiastes 7:
16 Do not be overly righteous,
Nor be overly wise:
Why should you destroy yourself?
17 Do not be overly wicked,
Nor be foolish:
Why should you die before your time?
18 It is good that you grasp this,
And also not remove your hand from the other

But if that is “New Age”… I don’t know what else to say to that.


Mystery Blog

As far as good honest debate you have a great point. Where we differ I think is we believe Jesus came to save us from our fallen selves, beast or flesh, and it is to be overcome and conquered by the power of salvation that redeems our spirits. We don’t believe in the balance of flesh and spirit. Normal functions like eating and sleeping are necessary but fleeting and other beastly desires like lust, glory, pride, greed, etc. are to be starved by surrendering entirely to Jesus as Lord. I’m interested in your view points not for the sake of arguing but learning from one another, if we can.


Soulblindministry Blog

“beastly desires like lust, glory, pride, greed”
These are actually aspects of both of your Higher/Lower desires left unchecked.

Lust: Lower Desires
But you can still have desires for your wife, correct? It is not lust if it is found sanctified for the Lord. This is still physical desire but with love.

Glory: Higher Desires
Glory too is okay if it is for His “glory” that He gives you fame. Tim Tebow, Rick Warren and Joel Olseen. These are just examples of people that are given “glory” for the Lord… or even look at Jesus’ ministry, He is the example for our lives, and He had glory too. So this is glory with love.

Pride: Higher Desires
Pride is actually not bad if it is for good things, like our children, or something good that you did. Like the pride you feel for the Lord. Pride is good, until the center of the pride is self-absorbed into vanity. Vanity is pride in yourself to excess. But pride in love is good.

Greed: Higher/Lower Desires
Geed is an ugly desire, but wants are not. I have a great want to help people. I have a great want the Lord in my life. I want to be loved and give love and all of those things are a type of greed to a point. But balance with love it can be a beautiful thing.

Balance out the things God gave you, like your wants and needs with what is good and what is not. Work out, within yourself, what is selfish to the point of no good. Or good to the point it becomes bad. Balance is the key to salvation in your spirit. All things are allowed, but not all things are good for you, or for the people around you..

1 Corinthians 10:23 All things are lawful for me, but not all things are helpful; all things are lawful for me, but not all things edify.

Jesus’ name means freedom or salvation, because He frees you in the mind, body and spirit, thus allowing your soul to be lifted up and elevated in knowledge, love, and peace, unto salvation from the weight of this world that weighs us down.


Stay tuned, big things are coming! AND if you liked this spread the Word!

24 thoughts on ““jimmied letters” The Epic Battle Within You”

  1. Just the word I was waiting to hear – I am thankful that God does and will help us overcome the negative that is within and also on the outside. Thank you for visiting my lil blog .

  2. I gave my life to Jesus Christ four years ago and though I was raised in an Evangelical Church, I never understood the Scriptures until I began reading them with the guidance of a solid church, history and context. My life has changed so much since then and I seek to keep growing and share the truths of God’s love for us with others

    God bless you in your ministry.

  3. Hmnn…the Bible is the owner’s manual for our species, seems to me; it also arrived a bit late; we seem to be out of warranty…

    Perhaps the troublesome dichotomy comprising us is a necessary cost of an enduring (if we prove to be) species in a universe such as that we inhabit? It appears to be a pretty tough place!

    (Your contending forces illustration shows why there’s been demand for your work!)

  4. The Good/Bad makes me think of a double-edged sword. Everything within has the power to be used for good or evil – and it is knowledge of how to use both sides – and then, I think, through faith, building skill and strength to use use all within us for good – BUT because we are human, that God made us imperfect, understanding we will at times fail, use what is within us gracelessly, and that is where repentance comes in, along with continual striving. I don’t think it is so much a good or bad dog (two dogs/swords) – but one sword with 2 sides representing choices:) Enjoyed this afternoon think-fest:)

    1. You hit everything 100% on the head! I am so impressed!

      The path of righteousness is the blade of the sword. Too far in either direction and you are cut! Wow! There is so much more I would love to share with you.

  5. I really enjoyed reading your post as well as the discussion about it! I can see your points, and I guess I see the “new age” aspect because of the focus being internal examination. Please don’t apologize for making us THINK out our beliefs, or what our faith is really in! That’s something we all need to do more of!

    Thinking outloud here:
    As I read your post I kept thinking, what’s missing? I too have fought the battles with the flesh that every chrisitian must face, so I’m not making light of the struggle, it really is warfare and it’s viscious! For me, the internal angel vs. demon you wrote about, are both working against us…the angel puffs us up and the demon pulls us into the dark places of life.
    What was missing is Holy Spirit! He’s the puzzle piece that brings the picture into focus/balance.

    Galatians 6:8
    “Whoever sows to please their flesh, from the flesh will reap destruction; whoever sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life.”

    We don’t feed either the angel or demon, we feed the Spirit of God inside us who is our power and victory to defeat both parts of ourselves that would lead us astray.
    The continual question in this continuing warfare is: Will I live by my feelings or by the Truth of God? “I feel _____” is not greater truth than The Truth of God.
    Holy Spirit rewiring our thinking to know our life is all about Jesus, not us, is the key!

    Sorry, I get carried away! 🙂 Thank you again for making us think!

    1. You started on the right path. It is the Holy Spirit that prompts our divided spirit and it brings us into balance and harmony. And when we are in balance our spirit can commune with His Spirit. THAT IS THE BALANCE! and you get it! We can intellectualize things all day, but we can NOT intellectualize the POWER of the Holy Spirit. It is such a force I can not even fully comprehend it in my life. I just try to open up enough to hear it and feel its little shoves in the right direction. And when we follow it…REAL MAGIC happens. There is something so beautiful in our spirits mingling. Something my mind can not intellectualize no matter how hard I try. And my heart is filled to bursting with its power and love. I don’t know about you but I am having a full on love affair with the Holy Spirit in my life! Amen!

  6. Very controversial. But I love the way you approached the issue of balance between flesh and spirit. I would admit it; I’ve never consciously thought about balancing out the two as I always pray for total destruction of anything that is not found to be a body of Christ in me. I also love your supporting verses from Ecclesiastes about not being overly righteous or foolish. Its plain to see that the bible favors application of wisdom in everything we do. Whether the issue lies in the choice of words here “balance” vs. “wisdom” is something I’ll have to ponder for a while but this is a thought-provoking post! Great!

    1. You are fully starting to get it. Remember, you are on a spiritual walk. A journey just as Christ walked everywhere, so are you in the spirit. You are learning to walk that path between two truths. This is the straight and narrow path. And to stand and walk straight you need balance or you will fall or stagger in your walk. Just because certain words were not used, it does not mean they are incorrect for their meaning. You will see things like “gain increase” actually means “to grow”. The problem is we as Christians have married to certain phrases in the scriptures to the point of them being almost cliché. And we sometimes miss the meaning in these things being said because we become blind to them.

      The Bible is SO RICH in meaning. I wish I could just sit down with you for one hour, I could open up the Bible to you in such a way that it will make your mind spin. I love having people close enough to share. The true spiritual meaning hidden right in front of you could start to change your life in just one hour. But as a written media that has to speak to many different people of faith, and each at different levels in their religion, and not necessarily faith, it takes a LOT of dotting the “i’s” and crossing the “t’s” to illustrate the greatest truths the Bible holds. So far now I am only laying out ground work with this blog. But soon I will open up the truth hidden before your eyes to the people that I think are ready to understand what Jesus was saying to His disciples. Not the words only for the crowd, but the words hidden in the tongues of the word. To those that want to know all the Bible has to offer, those are the ones that will find the greatest blessings in this life and in the Living Word.

      I am just so excited to launch this new phase of this ministry and I am bursting to share it with the world. But these posts will be locked with a code to only those that are truly interested. For everyone else I will still have my regular posts. I just want those that have a true interest in uncovering the riches the Book provides to join this group. It is not for those of the crowd that want to skim and put their religious clichés into the mix and agitate everyone. Just as the crowd came to see Jesus entertain them and make them feel good, they missed the point. And this is the current shape of Christianity. We are a crowd at a theater looking to be entertained with the next big exciting thing. But a disciple is called to walk with the Lord. Teach with the Lord. Be as the Lord and even walk on water. So to those that are willing to lay down their old life and take up the new. These are the people I want to speak with, and share the Lord’s greatest truths.

  7. 2 Timothy 1:7

    As I read throughout the bible, it is not only a guide but a story. It tells us how and why we were created, how we fell, God’s hope and disappointment in us and because of His love for us, came up with a solution- the gift of grace in our iniquity. (Christ) Then came the offer of grace, the acceptance/rejection of grace and then of course the response to grace. And then the final battle of good and evil.

    We are more than conquerors but it’s is STILL a daily battle, a daily DECISION to pick up that cross daily and CHOOSE to overcome the evil within. Our choice to follow and trust God is much like a marriage covenant. A proposal is a life of protection, security and covering. It doesn’t offer a life FREE of strife, but comfrt, strength and protection when it arrives at the door.

    This is not “New Age.” This is the battle within since the fall of Eden. Christ is our teacher and redeemer. He came to do what Adam & Eve, Cain & Abel and all the rest failed to do. BE our Brothers Keeper.

    1. Overall, I agree…You can flee evil so far that you become pious or isolated from the real world making it difficult to reach out to others or you can be so lost that you see wrong as right and right as wrong.

      God wants us to be disturbed. Because when you become too comfortable in your suburban neighborhood, like a stepford wife, it distances you from the woes of the world. You become complacent and isolated.

      God’s very nature is of balance.

  8. If, in their view, Jesus takes the place of our angel (or higher reasoning), then why are we called to knowledge and wisdom all throughout the Bible? Jesus gives us the means to balance our flesh and understanding.

    1. As with many of the debates that separate and divide us, it is a matter of words, and concepts words hold. I agree with both of you. How about that? There is a never ending struggle between positive and negative in our lives. I have struggled with overcoming the action inhibiting results of ‘the demons within.’ And to a certain extend, still deal with the by-products of that struggle.

      However, God does and did help me overcome all that junk so I don’t struggle with the lower, beastly desires any more. I think your approach is the admission of the reality of how we are made, but I also agree with your mystery blog. We don’t have to dwell there and get stuck in that overwhelming struggle. God is a powerful ally.
      Blessings to you all.

      1. This is the response I was hoping for. It is in the middle of the two truths that the true answers lie. Neither of us is wrong, and we are both right. It is as the good Samaritan that walked the center of the road to help, as the others that came walked on the outer ends and were not willing to change their side to the other.

        I have to tell you, that your response just unlocked something in me. A puzzle of the heart that has been waiting to be solved. I needed this one unlocked brother! I am about to try and launch something greater than all of us put together… I just need to figure out how. THANKS!

      1. I’m slowly growing. . . in a good way 😉 . . . but it’s time to heed the call to start moving. Where that leads, I don’t know, but I’ll get there eventually!

        Thank you for your ministry and allowing God to use your life!

  9. There is great depth in this article, and yet as I read the body of the article, I felt something was lacking, which allowed confusion over what you were sharing. In your replay to the second Mystery Blog email, I recognized what I failed to see in the article (it’s likely there, but I just did not see it) which is a clear and concise explanation of how to gauge the balance between spirit (higher desires) and flesh (lower desires). As you explain, the measuring stick is the motivation. I read recently, and wholeheartedly agree, that “hate” is not the opposite of “love”. The opposite of “love” is “selfishness”. In other words, the message I see here is that human (lower) desires in and of themselves are not bad, when carefully and thoughtfully balanced properly with the motivation of love for others.

    1. YES! You are absolutely correct. And you are equally correct that I did not put the fullness I would have, and should have put into this post. I usually try to hit every angle before I post. I have no deadlines for the things I write. I just write them by the promptings of God on my spirit. And when I feel they are at a point to launch, I let them set sail. But I had a deadline for two posts to two different sites, that were not my own. And I still needed to do posts for my own site as well. I think, I was too rushed. I think I can not post to other sites while my time is so limited. I think I did it in a kind of selfishness to appeal to more readers. I think my efforts are best left in what I can do and not always in what I want to do. So I missed great opportunities where I think I could have addressed greater points in this post and I will have to address them apart from it. It is a shame that I allowed my foolishness to cloud my better judgment. It was a greed in the heart and mind to gain more for the Lord, but I failed in my mission in that I allowed a good desire to be turned into a lesser result in quality.

      For that, I apologize to you my readers and to the people I wrote the post for. But God can use any situation to be used for a greater good, and as a result I think this post was a success as it created the dichotomy of two sides just as it is written about. Also it helped me discover a greater depth into my calling a purpose.

      1. I think perhaps you are being a little too hard on yourself. The posting was beautifully written and carries the reader down a very thought-provoking path. It’s a rather daunting task to expect to express all that one feels about a topic so conclusively that it leaves no room for afterthought. Impossible, I think. Great scientists spend an entire lifetime proving out a particular theory only to find late in their career perhaps the theory needs tweaking. We cannot always know everything with absolution. If we did, there would be no opportunity for growth, and grow we must.

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