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365 Day Photo Challenge Day 75 (The machine)

Elliptical BWMe Workout BW

Exercise to stimulate, not to annihilate. The world wasn’t formed in a day, and neither were we. Set small goals and build upon them.

Lee Haney


As of late Teresa and I have taken to the gym where I have met my newest best and worst friend called the Elliptical Training Machine. Sometimes I use it to abuse it, other times to just feel free.

It’s been a long road of pain with my health issue; I’m still not healed but at least I’m healthy enough to hit the gym several times a week. It’s a long road ahead but I don’t see the road I only see the benefit. I’m 6’5” and weight over 400lbs. This makes me very sad as I was about 240lbs only a few years back and wore an XL shirt, but that was before I got injured. I ate to numb pain and the lack of exercise only added to my health decline and I lost contact with the full mind, BODY & spirit connection. I spent many hours researching and in meditation with God’s word but I did not spend enough time on my physical self. The biggest problem other than my rectal fissure was the lack of ability to breath. I finally got a doctor to check me out and now find out that all I needed a simple nasal prescription to help me breathe again. Since then I have been on fire for living and can’t wait to do more and more of it, but I need to keep being active. We take for granted the little things like breathing and being able to stand or sit for extended periods of time. But these things are your core and without them you fall into disrepair.

So now I am back on the path but without a goal to be in any particular shape or achieve anything but a happier healthier lifestyle. I will let my body dictate its goals each day as it seems to be happy doing so, so I’ll enjoy the ride. I have no one to please, no one to impress. I am loved no matter what and I want to be a better me for Her, God and me. And in the end those are the ones that matter most, the ones we love.

Smile, breathe and be free to RUN! :)


What is LOVE?

What is LoveAh, this crazy little thing called “LOVE”.

There are so many poems, songs, letters, etc. all directed at this wondrous feeling we call LOVE. But what is Love really?

What if I told you that LOVE is not a feeling at all, but rather that euphoric feeling you get is the reward for finding love? This is a key element in the path to enlightenment called RIGHTEOUSNESS. I know this may sound odd but bear with me here. Righteousness is not about being extra pious or even religious; it has nothing to do with those concepts at all, in fact, piousness is a result of love and not its source. To put piousness first would be like putting the cart before the horse. Love comes first and from the overflow of what is inside it spills out unto what is outside.

Consider the word called LOVE. The mind rewards with joyful chemicals such as serotonin or dopamine whenever you do something considered correct. The word CORRECT is the basis of the word RIGHT that we use in RIGHTEOUSNESS. So CORRECTNESS is the foundation of LOVE. This may sound odd but I learned an interesting fact from being married to a Japanese lady for over 20 years and that was the word BEAUITUL means ORDERLY. The mind is a calculating machine and it constantly seeks order out of chaos, and this process of finding beauty in order to the Chinese may be known as Fung Shui or even Kung Fu. In India it may be Dharma or Yoga. There are many modalities all based in the sense of order as beauty. In part this comes from the fact we are all made of atoms and thus there is a fractal structure built into everything, most easy to see in snowflakes, metals and trees. A fractal is an object that reproduces itself in a repetitive manner, generally shrinking as it repeats, but always with a form of symmetry. This is the same method in which the Bible is written as a macrocosm and microcosm where many greater things reflect in smaller things and vice versa.

Consider: Macro Micro

  • God as FATHER as Mind
  • Holy Spirit as MOTHER as Spirit
  • Son as CHILD as Body

These same echoes go through Sky/Superego, Waters/Ego and EARTH/Id and so forth.

But again let’s consider LOVE. What is love then if not a feeling?

To the ancient Greeks LOVE was separated into 4 aspects of correctness:

  • Body: Éros (ἔρως érōs)
  • Spirit: Agápe (ἀγάπη agápē)
  • Mind: Philia (φιλία philía)
  • Soul or Being: Storge (στοργή storgē)

The Body/Id: Éros (ἔρως érōs)
Eros is the love of the body that desires perfection to reproduce with. It seeks healthy genetic material to unite to and thus it appreciates order, as life is made of fractals and symmetry. The people we consider most beautiful are exceptionally symmetrical. In fact as an artist I was taught that all facial relations are based on the measurement of the eye (Try and measure your facial features based on the width of your eye and see). Beauty means Harmonious, or Orderly, thus it gives ease to the primitive self and seeks to join to it, thus we have our animal drive of a sexual nature. The love drive from the primitive-self to find order is also the driving force that leads to higher-understanding.

The Heart/Spirit/Ego: Agápe (ἀγάπη agápē)
Agápe is the love of heart in relationships. It desires perfect relational bonding so it most often relates to family as an intimate love that is not physical. It relates to what is most perfectly and closely connected to you and it associates all things to itself as a relational wisdom. In other words it’s a selfish love that seeks to make everything good about the self. If something seems correct it then selfishly wants it to belong to you. This is why it plays mother/spirit as it brings forth a connection like an umbilicus to God and creates balance between father/superego and child/Id, but unfortunately it too is fickle and is easily swayed as it wants all things to be about the self.

The Mind/Superego: Philia (φιλία philía)
Philia is a love of the mind without feeling that demands correctness of ideals, aspirations, goals, etc. and links to other similar concepts. It is often referred to as “Brotherly love” as it sees certain people as correct and honorable and closely associates itself to likeminded individuals. This love is that of the superego that feels nothing but only desires order. It is easily seen in music, books, sports, religion and all forms of entertainment, thus you LOVE or HATE a song, show, etc. because of how it resonates with your higher sensibilities. Consider music like Bach and Mozart, this music is math and the harmonious mind revels in the perfection. Consider a joke and the release of joy in solving a mystery/riddle. The mind is what often tries to play God as it is in opposition to the body/Id because the body seeks comfort but the mind seeks goals and ideals. So to the mind’s love is that which is most correct to its own objectives and ideals thus it pits the father’s order against the unruly chaos of the child.

The Soul/Being/Psyche: Storge (στοργή storgē)
Storge is the love of the full soul that is without any other explanation other than it is the sense of being. The entire psyche/soul seeks sustainability through understanding and balance and thus accepts things as they are, as all things are peaceful when all things are in order, even if not perfect, it will accept that which the other loves cannot. Order in balance is the sense of being.

Again LOVE is not a feeling; it is the correctness in everything. This is why our ideal mate is loved in mind, body, spirit and soul. When all are connected as being true it is a bond not easy to separate without utterly destroying the foundations of self. The goal of LOVE is to create a harmonious sense of being and thus it seeks the higher understandings of GOD which is correctness in universal Truth. This is why Christ is known as “Truth” as He is the embodiment of God’s Love for humanity and the spiritual guide we all follow as a process of enlightenment.

The Bible tells us Only God is GOOD, as only GOD IS LOVE… as GOD IS the source of CORRECTNESS/RIGHTEOUSNESS in everything. God is also the great I AM. We see this also in the name of His Son called Emmanuelle, translated “God with (IN) us” …TRUTH is LOVE.

Matthew 19

16 And, behold, one came and said unto him, Good Master, what good thing shall I do, that I may have eternal life?

17 And he said unto him, Why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is, God: but if thou wilt enter into life, keep the commandments.


1 John 4

7 Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God.

8 He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love.

365 Day Photo Challenge Day 74 (Fantasy?)


All the works of man have their origin in creative fantasy. What right have we then to depreciate imagination.

Carl Jung


Num23:22; Num 24:8; Deu 33:17; Job 39:9,10; Psa 22:21; Psa 29:6; Psa 92:10; Isa 34:7

Gen 14:5; Gen 15:20; Deu 2:11; Deu 2:20; Deu 3:11; Deu 3:13; Jos 12:4; Jos 13:12; Jos 15:8; Jos 17:15; Jos 18:16; 2Sa 5:18; 2Sa 5:22; 2Sa 21:16; 2Sa 21:18; 2Sa 21:20; 2Sa 21:22; 2Sa 23:13; 1Ch 11:15; 1Ch 14:9; 1Ch 20:4; 1Ch 20:6; 1Ch 20:8; Isa 17:5

Gen 1:21; Exo 7:9; Exo 7:10; Exo 7:12; Deu 32:33; Neh 2:13; Job 7:12; Job 30:29; Psa 44:19; Psa 74:13; Psa 91:13; Psa 148:7; Isa 13:22; Isa 27:1; Isa 34:13; Isa 35:7; Isa 43:20; Isa 51:9; Jer 9:11; Jer 10:22; Jer 14:6; Jer 49:33; Jer 51:34; Jer 51:37; Lam 4:3; Eze 29:3; Eze 32:2; Mic 1:8; Rev 12:3; Rev 12:4; Rev 12:7; Rev 12:9; Rev 12:13; Rev 12:16; Rev 12:17; Rev 13:2; Rev 13:4; Rev 13:11; Rev 16:13; Rev 20:2

Sea Serpents:
Job 41:1; Psalms 74:14; Psalms 104:26: Isaiah 27:1

Golems, Angels, Demons, Etc., Etc., Etc…

365 Day Photo Challenge Day 73


The role of a clown and a physician are the same – it’s to elevate the possible and to relieve suffering.

 Patch Adams

Luke 4:23 And he said unto them, Ye will surely say unto me this proverb, Physician, heal thyself:


One of the main jobs we see Jesus perform is the part of the physician in His ministry, healing souls everywhere He goes. And each thing He heals is symbolic of an ailment in your spiritual life.

Great Physician’s Check list:

Patient’s Spiritual Diseases:


Heal the blind, to give a clearer spiritual perception.

Genesis 3:5 For God knows that in the day you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil.”

Heal the lame, so they can walk their spiritual journey.

Proverbs 28:18 Whoever walks blamelessly will be saved, But he who is perverse in his ways will suddenly fall.

Heal the deaf, to give them understanding of spiritual things.

Isaiah 29:18 In that day the deaf shall hear the words of the book, And the eyes of the blind shall see out of obscurity and out of darkness

Heal the leper, to cleanse the spiritual house of the blemish of corruption.

Leviticus 14:44 then the priest shall come and look; and indeed if the plague has spread in the house, it is an active leprosy in the house. It is unclean.


Prognosis if patient is not treated:



In the Bible, the physical body is a mirror of the spiritual body. And if the physical body is incomplete, it would show the state of the man on the inside as well. But mind you, God used these cases to teach us, the future generations (as well as back then), how to find the path of enlightenment and how to rise from the death of the old lifeless-self and be reborn again into a whole new spiritual being. So the physical body was healed to show their spiritual life renewed by the breath of God within them – faith. So He too would raise the physically dead to be counted amongst the spiritually living. Like Lazarus.

John 11:37 And some of them said, “Could not this Man, who opened the eyes of the blind, also have kept this man from dying?”

One of the great things about the Bible is the duality of how it is written. Not only is this talking about Lazarus the person, but also who Lazarus is to you as a spiritual individual.

‘El`azar; el·ä·zär': Whom God helps or God’s Help

Yes, Jesus whom opened the eyes of the spiritually blind and gave them a clear perception, can also, with “God’s help” keep you from dying a spiritual death too!

Revelation 2:11 “He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. He who overcomes shall not be hurt by the second death.” (Death in the spirit)



Rest Peacefully


Remember, Jesus tells His disciples that Lazarus only sleeps. But he is awakened when his name is called to come forth. (I LOVE this part!)

Luke 16:40 Jesus said to her, “Did I not say to you that if you would believe you would see the glory of God?”41 Then they took away the stone from the place where the dead man was lying. And Jesus lifted up His eyes and said, “Father, I thank You that You have heard Me.42 And I know that You always hear Me, but because of the people who are standing by I said this, that they may believe that You sent Me.”43 Now when He had said these things, He cried with a loud voice, “Lazarus, come forth!”44 And he who had died came out bound hand and foot with graveclothes, and his face was wrapped with a cloth. Jesus said to them, “Loose him, and let him go.”

Do you understand what is being said here to you as a spiritual being? Don’t just read this as the physical act of a man coming out of the tomb. This Lazarus is the “Help of God” in your own life. Whom by prayer comes forth from a life “as once dead” in the spirit, bound in bondage to the ways of death. And when you arise the veil of disbelief is removed from your eyes! “LOOSE HIM AND LET HIM GO” says the Lord of freedom. Let him go.

By your silent prayers, as Jesus said “I know that You always hear Me” you unleash the power of “God’s help” to be free from the grips of death that bind you, and blind you, and stop your walk, and infect your soul. The grave is silent and hears not the word of God. And though your spirit is poor, God gives you riches to store in heaven to pay the price of freedom.


Payment method:

Poverty, No insurance:


Luke 16:19 “There was a certain rich man who was clothed in purple and fine linen and fared sumptuously every day.20 But there was a certain beggar named Lazarus, full of sores, who was laid at his gate

You are the poor man at the gate, begging for mercy and riches. The gate is Heaven. Keep begging for God’s help. And He will grant you riches like you would never believe…

Proverbs 8:18 Riches and honor are with me, Enduring riches and righteousness.

Proverbs 14:24 The crown of the wise is their riches, But the foolishness of fools is folly.

So to John the Baptist these words were uttered to let him know that his life was for a reason and all debts were paid in full.

Matthew 11:5 The blind see and the lame walk; the lepers are cleansed and the deaf hear; the dead are raised up and the poor have the gospel preached to them.

We are rich in the Spirit and we are made whole by the freedom we know humbly as… Jesus.


Final Diagnosis:

Life Everlasting


Outstanding Balance Due At Time Of Discharge: 0


by the Love of Jesus

365 Day Photo Challenge Day 72


Parents and schools should place great emphasis on the idea that it is all right to be different. Racism and all the other ‘isms’ grow from primitive tribalism, the instinctive hostility against those of another tribe, race, religion, nationality, class or whatever. You are a lucky child if your parents taught you to accept diversity.

Roger Ebert

A question occurred to me today “What is race?”

In all honesty it’s not something I put much thought into. I know the stereotypes, I have been raised around enough people filled with hatred fueled by fear, but I personally never understood it. My mother raised me well enough to not obsess over the outer differences people have and to focus on what’s beneath the skin. But I never thought about the surface level issue that separates. So again I ask “What is race?”

It seems to me that if it does not change anything but color or small features what does it do? Does it change the way you think, feel, or sense the world around you? Then isn’t it just a means of saying “Hey, this is where my ancestors lived for a while and we took on features to cope with that area.”

So if race does nothing but change looks then what’s the big deal? If it does nothing, how long will it take others to realize there is really only one race called human.

If God does not see differences in our souls then what are we all fussing over?

365 Day Photo Challenge Day 71


“Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that.”

― Martin Luther King Jr.


Who wins when people act like fools? Light in the Bible symbolizes enlightenment, and thus darkness is not hate, nor evil but ignorance. What people do in their ignorance is a shame because then on whom do you place the blame? On the individual, or on the society that failed them by not sharing a little guiding light? In an unfamiliar path without light you are bound to stumble along the way. Lend your light and help light the way.

Matthew 5:14 Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.

SHINE! Shine out into the that dark world that it may no longer be blind. SHINE! SHINE! SHINE ALL OF THE TIME! So that through you, they may know God in time.

A reply to a friend and love

ad7e3f1e-2b1f-4789-ac33-833870ce6cfeYesterday I did a post about being a friend that came from something deep inside. To which I got this reply that started me writing what I can only guess was bottled up inside.


BecStorm says:
April 28, 2015 at 7:19 am
This is true and what I have been working on lately! I’m very shy so it’s hard for me to really connect with people, but the more I open up, the better it goes.


soulblindministry says:
April 28, 2015 at 8:49 am
I too am not perfect with this aspect of my life. I have become unfamiliar with the art of casual conversation and have dedicated so much time and effort into my biblical studies that I forget to meet new people. Teresa and I are so compatible that it’s hard to let in new people at times, but as my research is reaching a refining stage I find it’s time to start breaking out of the cocoon and to make new friends. It’s hard for me; both of us really. I have become a bit of an introvert and she has always been one. But we can overcome our shyness and learn to expand our family as a circle of friends. Like I said I have been away for the world for so long incarcerated and then isolated living with a family friend far away from the city. Constantly deep in Biblical books and concordances trying to unravel a mystery that pushed and prodded me forward to figure out something I could not recognize. I had no idea what it was but I have felt it my entire life like some great watcher sitting nearby guiding my steps, and feeling the sadness when I drifted too far off the path. But I hear Him now. Not in a voice. Never in a voice, but I can see all the pieces of the puzzle as they were offered to me. A piece here a riddle there: a show, an ideal, all gathering into me until I could start to see how it all stitched together and made into one harmonious picture. I feel Him, so powerful now it actually scares the crud out of me.

In fact yesterday it all came to a head for me. I felt something breaking free in me. It was brief but in that moment I felt like a giant whale had breached the surface and raised and eye as if to say hello and then resided again back down just below the surface, silent and watching. It was as if I turned on a light switch and there was my Creator sitting in a rocking chair in the corner with a corncob pipe and a friendly smile waved hello, and then vanished as I tried to correct my vision. It made me feel like Peter on the water, where for that brief moment I too was more than a man and was there with a long lost friend guiding me, encouraging me. It sent my day into a strange pace like a daze, and not until last night could I give it voice and I wept as I shared with Teresa what had happened. I didn’t know how to process something so profound and so very real. In all the time I have been studying the Bible, I started with the “Why’s?” then the “How’s” etc., but for so long, I have been divided between academic principals and reality. Always the two stayed apart somehow, because a part of me, though allowing myself to follow the process, couldn’t resolve the two concepts as though God was truly real and I was there with Him the whole time.

I love God. I always have but this time I really felt Him. I FELT Him. I knew He was there my whole life but I always had a reason to rationalize away the feelings. I’m the weirdest kind of Christian, I suppose, as I believe but I always leave room for doubt, perhaps to keep my heart safe. I could not say for certain, but last night I was left facing something bigger than anything else I’ve ever known. I have lived a life of defeat and pain. I’ve been an outsider more times than I can remember, always the new guy, changing schools as my family moved around, then hopping state-to-state as a grown up changing jobs in a challenging industry of video games.

I had a challenging childhood, awful marriage and so many things I can see now were not that big of a deal after all. It was all for a reason, perfectly scripted out to make something important happen. Each a piece of a puzzle, now all fitting together like some great learning tool. So last night I found myself weeping not for my sadness of the past or for sins, but for being faced with the reality of my Creator being there by my side encouraging me. And I had to ask Teresa, “Am I crazy?” To me this made the most sense because then I could dismiss the revelation of His reality in my life. If I was crazy I had an excuse. But if I wasn’t crazy it meant He was there, and has always been there, and worst of all I am an instrument of His truth. AND THAT SCARES ME! Who am I? Why should I be of any importance at all? I’m no one. I have no credentials, no serious education beyond trade school for graphic design. I am not eloquent at words; I am a sinner who never quite understood the teachings of churches. But yet here am I Lord. That is all I had were those simple words. “Here am I Lord”. And maybe that’s all He needs to work through someone’s life. A willingness to surrender. A willingness to stop listening to all the other voices telling you to stop and do things their way. A willingness to keep following the trail of bread crumbs laid out before you, that I am convinced is laid out before us all. We just stop listening and close ourselves off to that voice. Or there are those that WANT that specialness with God and fabricate their specialness. I on the other hand am afraid of the specialness but I can no long stand by in the shadows and watch the way His word is used.

The basics are beautiful and perfect but the TRUTH, the beautiful truth we miss each time we open the book stagers my mind. I want so bad to stand on rooftops and shout out to the world “LISTEN ALL OF YOU BLIND LONELY PEOPLE! THERE IS SO MUCH MORE YOU ARE MISSING! There is still so much there whispering into your ears” and I know my voice would trail away lost to those lost to entertainment, and distractions, and personal drama. I know my words would fall on deaf ears, I know because I have tried. But then yesterday with that reality of His presence, I think I have to stop doubting and start trusting. If I cannot trust in myself how can God trust in an instrument like a sword in battle? An untested weapon may shatter when first it encounters opposition, and then where would the master of sword be without a weapon. God’s weapon is not me or you, but truth. Truth is the one thing that solidifies our metal and hardens our resolve. We are swords of truth prepared for battle upon a darkened world and that darkness most call “sin” is not actually “evil” at all. It is simply ignorance. The opposite of light is darkness. Light is enlightenment, and if the opposite of light is dark than the opposite of knowledge is ignorance. The dark world is not evil at all. It is all a bunch of frightened children alone in the dark looking simply to belong. And I know they can’t be forced, or screamed at as they have been fearful for far too long. So I guess I need to offer a hand as a friend. A friendly hello and a warm honest smile. I will let my light shine out from the inside and offer them the gift I learned from my Father called “love”.

So it has begun. I am still afraid but I think it is time to wake the sleeping giant. It is time to bring the whale up from beneath the surface, and to say hello to the jolly wise old man in the chair. I guess I am saying… I’m ready to be a friend from God.

With much love, keep keeping on.


akateacher says:
April 28, 2015 at 9:02 am
You are beautifully made and beautifully gifted. Trust in His lead and lean on Him (and me) when necessary. You are never alone in this endeavor and we both will continue forward in love.



365 Day Photo Challenge Day 70


I think it’s kind of nice, in this day and age of instant gratification, that you have to wait for something.

Julian Ovenden

Few things that come instantly are worth having. We never seem to respect things given verses things earned. The old saying of “fast cars, fast women and fast food” are all things not respected but used. I have seen the face of the beast when I was locked away from the world. I saw the need for instant gratification first hand from men that had nothing but time on their hands, yet most never learned to wait. In this day and age we all seem to want nothing but instant gratification without spending the time to earn the things that then become special through the effort. This is where the true bonds of love are forged. The chains that bind are only as strong as your weakest link and anything forged quickly will never last the testing of time. Love, respect, honor and commitment are all things we develop over time. We don’t go to a stranger and give them our children or prized possessions until we feel we really know this person to treat our precious things with love and respect. So how can we expect to know anyone if we do not get to truly known them and put the time and effort into a friendship? Hitting “Like”on a post or a retweet is neither love nor respect. In the end it is nothing at all but a flick of a finger.

So I say meet someone new. Spend more than a minute not being evasive and connect as a future friend. Invest a little time and love and see what crop you might grow from sowing a few seeds of fellowship and compassion. No rush. It’s not a race. A smile, a friendly hello and an exchange of names may be all they need to start the process and make them feel validated. In time they may be the best investment you ever made. Invest true riches that they may come back to you with interest.

Ephesians 4:2 With all lowliness and meekness, with longsuffering, forbearing one another in love;

365 Day Photo Challenge Day 69


Gold medals aren’t really made of gold. They’re made of sweat, determination, and a hard-to-find alloy called guts.

Dan Gable

Gold is not always about a metal but always about a brilliance of virtue. It is regarded as a brightness that is hard to attain, that comes through effort. In the Bible gold is a symbol of awareness and virtue that exceeds all others and thus rare as the metal that is scarce throughout the universe. Gold is one of the gifts to the Christ from the Magi for it represents His divine authority as a king, and as the king of the world of the soul He is the authority and virtue of the mind that leads humanity unto salvation from the prison of the death called control and ignorance. The only true commodity that matters in the end is the ability to overcome the adversities laid upon by fate, by our determination to make this world a better place. So to the victor goes the spoils, and the only true king is the brilliance of God called the TRUTH also known as CHRIST.

365 Day Photo Challenge Day 68


The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others.

Mahatma Gandhi


Acts 6:2 Then the twelve called the multitude of the disciples unto them, and said, It is not reason that we should leave the word of God, and serve tables.

Service is a wonderful gift, especially of those that feed others. Food is seldom thought of today as being the source of wisdom or knowledge but Biblically speaking, food is the source of understanding. Whenever you read the Bible and you read about a famine or food shortage it represents a lack of understanding. Inversely when an abundance of food in mentioned, say as in a feast, then it’s about true wisdom given abundantly. Life is mimicked through the Bible as many things that all represent a greater understanding, each with its own unique attributes it brings to the table. You often hear about meat to eat and this is the heart of a matter, verses the mother’s milk meant to nourish the faint of understanding yet learning to grow into adulthood in the spirit. As we grow our foods of understanding become longer lasting and we can go farther with less explanation needed, thus Elijah went 40 days on a single meal and Christ could go 40 as well without eating a thing.

So do not let people put you down if you work in the food industry, the truth is you are a teacher offering sustenance not only for the body but a service that feeds the soul.