Falling up

So often life is the opposite of what we dreamed it would be. Who could have guessed that growing up would entail so much falling-down?

When I look back at my life I see so many possibilities that could have been, and then I see the reality that is me. The two look nothing alike. Life does not hit like a girl. Life does not fight fair. It hits below the belt, and it claws and scratches and tries to pull you down with all it has. That’s not how I learned to fight. I was taught to box and keep my blows clean. I was taught to respect my enemy and they will in turn respect me… Life didn’t seem to get that memo.

Life is complicated, and love is worse, but I am tired of falling-down. I am tired of the games. I am going to play by my own rules now. This time I am falling-up. You may think I am a fool for believing in a God that can’t be seen because it’s not popular or uncool, but I am not going to go back to the me I was. I refuse to be a nothing that thinks it’s something. I have been there and done that and I was a fool who thought he knew everything. But now I have nothing left. I lost EVERYTHING… so now I look up to hope and a future. I love big. I care big. I do not want to settle for just good enough. I have to believe life gets better. I have to believe there is real love in the world and not just in fairy tales. I have never really known love but I am ready to at least try it. For now I walk this road alone. I choose to treat people with respect and to lift them up and to never put them down. Life does enough harm all by itself, and like hell if I am going to give it any more ammo of stones to throw.

Taking the high road is a lot harder than the low, but there is what is easy and then there is what is right, and I choose the road less traveled and choose the right. This road is lonely and to be honest I could use some company, maybe someone that will hold my hand for courage and to make me stronger for simply just being by my side.

Ecclesiastes 4:9 Two are better than one, Because they have a good reward for their labor. 10 For if they fall, one will lift up his companion. But woe to him who is alone when he falls, For he has no one to help him up. 11 Again, if two lie down together, they will keep warm; But how can one be warm alone? 12 Though one may be overpowered by another, two can withstand him. And a threefold cord is not quickly broken.

I choose a life of strength. I choose to stop falling down… Come join me and instead let’s rise-up, together and stop facing the cruel world alone.

Laugh, cry, try… together. Don’t be afraid to write me. You are not alone. Friends support each other as best they can. Help me, help you. Ask questions, ANY QUESTIONS and I will do my best to answer them for you with a loving and Biblical answer.

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11 thoughts on “Falling up”

  1. I just recently went to jail for a crime I did not commit, had to leave my home and everything in it due to this acusation. I had to borrow underware from my sister. Trust me I know what you are going through and I feel the same way. I would never have gotten through this if it werent for My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. All of this happened June 1st this year. Now I am a non-smoker, back in Church and so blessed I feel over blessed sometime like I just don’t deserve it. But, you know what? I do, God said I do and Jesus proved it by giving his life for mine. I still have alot of things to replace, but I know with God by my side I can do anything!! Thank you Jesus, for your sacrifice and my true family: My sister Angie and My neice Jessica. I love you soooooo much.

  2. A year ago I broke off an engagement with a man who had been lying to me for a solid year. Untangling the web of deceit and cutting off the relationship was the most difficult thing I’ve ever done, but God has blessed me so, so much in the past year. Going through that experience drew me so much closer to Him. Not only did I grow closer to God, He gave me the best friends I could have imagined to get me through that experience. God is good!

  3. You know Daniel, we often say seeing is believing but it occurs to me that it’s really the other way around. Believing is seeing. You can see it because you believe it.

  4. Amen, Brother Daniel! I have a couple of major regrets in my life (college, career choice) and am simply trying to make it through until I make something better than this.

  5. Daniel, I truly believe God has some big plans with your life and as hard as it has been for me to take this same advice, it is all in His time! Life does throw some heavy punches (although I have met some women I wouldn’t want to mess with!). Taking the high road and falling up is the best way to go!

    You have been such a blessing to so many of us and have such a wonderful heart and spirit. Never lose that! You’ve been a real inspiration!

  6. I have walked in the shoes of many people struggling and also happy and those who are content within the parameters of their lives. Experience is the best teacher, hind sight invaluable…..thank you for speaking your God given wisdom, I always glean so much from you….someday perhaps I will meet you in person and actually see the reflection of Jesus within your eyes….for those living near you are blessed.
    Blessings with hope and faith each day…..Marty

  7. Dear Damiel, Falling up requires that you surrender to the power that is God. Surrender is very, very hard, especially when we are always bombarded with messages from all media, to grab what we want with both hands. What we all need to learn is that grabbing for this “power” has the opposite effect, it leads to only wanting more power. Yet God does not require our power, just our faithful love and obedience. It is in my weekness that I am strong. Follow Him who loves us unconditionally and then life is full of possibilities. Prayer is also important as it puts us into the mindset of God, not the mindset of the world. Everything in this world will pass away, only God will remain. We need to remind ourselves constantly that this journey is only the beginning of lives, it is the journey that will bring us into everlasting life. God is our hope and He is a hope that is not of this world but the One that speaks to our spirit. I like to remind myself often that we are not human beings on this journey,but rather we are spiritual beings on a human journey. God knows us before we are born, our spirit is already there, what we do when we have our human life, depends on how we remember and embrace that spiritual part of our very selves. Our search for God will bring us ever closer to living our human lives as beloved children of God. Then like you we will fall up and become much more than what we can by ourselves. God Bless you always and hold you in the palm of His hand.
    Olivia

  8. This is so true, I am nowhere near where I thought I would be at this point in life. At almost 32 years old I thought I would have a lot more be a lot farther. Sure didn’t think I would be getting a divorce and be a single mom of 3 trying to make it.

    1. Amen to that! I didn’t think I would be divorced and have a criminal record along with all the other goofy stuff that came along with the last few years either. Life is not always what we expect and it can be hard to take sometimes, like trying to swallow some kind of bitter pill, but it really is all for a greater good. Just some things seem so bad at the time that it is hard to see the good in the situation, but stay faithful and hopeful and good things can come from even the worst situations. Faith is our greatest weapon.

      By the way, do you know what I think is great? You love your children and that alone is a greater gift than anything else you can give them. They see you try… sometimes that teaches the lesson of perseverance and overcoming adversity. Maybe your struggles will become their strength. :)

      1. I know a criminal record can be very hard to over come. I was a temp bail bondsman for 3 years. You see the same people over and over again. Once you get one thing on there it is hard to get a job or place to live. My soon to be ex had one charge over15 years old and in his 30’s now and still can’t get a good job and has a hard time trying to find places to live. But unlike him and others I have seen if you really want it bad enough you can over come it and have a good life and the things you want. It just might be a little harder to get but you can get it. I believe that if you can turn things around for yourself. Finding god and having faith helps a lot.

        Yes I hope that my children learn a lot from what they see me go threw and what we have went threw and I am sure it isn’t the end. We are just starting out on our adventure of our new family life as we now know it for now.

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