When I look back at my life I see so many possibilities that could have been, and then I see the reality that is me. The two look nothing alike. Life does not hit like a girl. Life does not fight fair. It hits below the belt, and it claws and scratches and tries to pull you down with all it has. That’s not how I learned to fight. I was taught to box and keep my blows clean. I was taught to respect my enemy and they will in turn respect me… Life didn’t seem to get that memo.
Life is complicated, and love is worse, but I am tired of falling-down. I am tired of the games. I am going to play by my own rules now. This time I am falling-up. You may think I am a fool for believing in a God that can’t be seen because it’s not popular or uncool, but I am not going to go back to the me I was. I refuse to be a nothing that thinks it’s something. I have been there and done that and I was a fool who thought he knew everything. But now I have nothing left. I lost EVERYTHING… so now I look up to hope and a future. I love big. I care big. I do not want to settle for just good enough. I have to believe life gets better. I have to believe there is real love in the world and not just in fairy tales. I have never really known love but I am ready to at least try it. For now I walk this road alone. I choose to treat people with respect and to lift them up and to never put them down. Life does enough harm all by itself, and like hell if I am going to give it any more ammo of stones to throw.
Taking the high road is a lot harder than the low, but there is what is easy and then there is what is right, and I choose the road less traveled and choose the right. This road is lonely and to be honest I could use some company, maybe someone that will hold my hand for courage and to make me stronger for simply just being by my side.
Ecclesiastes 4:9 Two are better than one, Because they have a good reward for their labor. 10 For if they fall, one will lift up his companion. But woe to him who is alone when he falls, For he has no one to help him up. 11 Again, if two lie down together, they will keep warm; But how can one be warm alone? 12 Though one may be overpowered by another, two can withstand him. And a threefold cord is not quickly broken.
I choose a life of strength. I choose to stop falling down… Come join me and instead let’s rise-up, together and stop facing the cruel world alone.
Laugh, cry, try… together. Don’t be afraid to write me. You are not alone. Friends support each other as best they can. Help me, help you. Ask questions, ANY QUESTIONS and I will do my best to answer them for you with a loving and Biblical answer.